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In 2006 I started practicing my yoga again, I could feel myself crawling out of this "community"....but as if on some level they knew it (or not) and gave me the worst hell of the decade living here. Every night, calling the police. Outside the door of what's supposed to be my sanctuary in a free usa, these woman tormented me so badly I recorded gours and hours, just letting my camera run-knowing they wanted me to hear them, I knew I was within my rights. Also for my own protection. They were conspiring to hurt me. Why? Everyone I talk to about doesnt understand why anyone would enjoy doing that to a person-nor do i and pray I never will. But that doesnt mean I cant recognize it and call it out. Expose it for what it is. An attack on someone for no reason...and its me for fcksake so why wouyldnt I Obsess on it?
I lost MY job that year Robbers, not right away, but as my conversations were more and more about how to fix my problems at home (with people who are supposed to be about health and healing)  slowly but surely I held on through Thanksgiving 2006...but it had soured...living alone does that to you too...me anyway... I make the mistake of believing anyone has time to listen to my life's problems...I have no one to come home to and get a reality check once in a while...I deal with it better than most I bet...and yet the couple who are causing me so much then and STILL now again this summer...still? I was so nice to these poeple all year since I'd been back...I even encouraged Paul Bolls to take his position on the board thinking the bad had gone....and there they were agin up in my face! Fining me and no one else and lecturing me with words like " The rules are the rules!" and sending me harassing letters remidning me I cant use the pool during the hottest weel of july...it was signed THE BOARD" and a couple of board members told me that shouldnt have been signed that way because they never even discussed it etc....the proof is there...its abouit more than a loust sum of petty cash...its about abuse in one person's life affecting the bigger picture...they had cops at my door last night because the chubbers  saw 2 slip of paper that said "Dear Students of Christ the king"..and "smile uron candid camera" notes to myself-ya things I was planning to write about to provoke a higher consciousness in someone who is harrassing me....but the point is this was paper and pen.  Cops at my door at 11pm because a liar tried to once again publicly humiliate me. I have never hurt a person in my life. Ive said things a few times I would consider taking back but thats about it....I dont hurt people, Yet people are so quick to resort to creating problems I alwasy need to devote my time to-because I dont have the money in this case for $120 in fines that are fabricated...I go to the court 3 days ago to ask for help. I even asked the police there what can I do as I believe the degree to which they have conspired to effect my ability to live...to keep worklife healthy and make money and the rest...they have stolen so much time from me and it shows no sign of stopping. SO I do the civil thing and file court papers, before the weekend is over this condo board is telling me theyve consulted their lawyers-which mean more costs even if I win the small claims case to not have to borrow (from god knows who's left that $120)....I purposely focussed on the Bolls personal vendetta against me as an individual. They have chosen to run up a bill just to tell me where to go...
I cannot believe how they have sucked the will to live out of me sometimes...Its depressing because I never did anything to them-any of them-even now? What am I doing? Talking about the ridiculousness of not only the abuse but even when we were getting along they come after me for parking....the door handle had been taped up so solidly for so many years I forgot it was ever broken-but of course the sun over time has weakened it...I made the mistake of trying to explain that all these little things added up to big bucks to fix...how much does a body shop charge to take a door apart? My god... one of the 2 cops here last night said "I never heard of that"...i dont think its possible to express how in a state of shock i was. How much I resent being told to "shut up and listen" after watching a doc just an hr before of soldiers ripping people out of homes in the oil war countries...after...should I tell my wholw life story? Again? Maybe Ill just finally link it all together? I dont know. But last night those cops let me know how valueless my life really is to anyone but myself...if I have one day left I would write this and more...what has been done to me since 1993 when Deborah Moore got the ruination ball rolling....Im too old or this shit. Im too depressed to use my spell checl...

all those cops last night would have to do is take out their magnifying glass on the paper work these people will claim doesnt exist ...I have every single one of hundreds of emails Ive written to this board...HUNDREDS! Does that sound like a crazy person that needs to be riled? The truth is right in front of everyone and im not backing down till i get an apology for everyones sake more than mine.

Things like this make me realize how far society has fallen and close we are to war on our soil. I am truly sickened by this hypocrisy and understand why the dissed get pissed...pissed a whole lot worse than a lousy goddam piece of paper on the floor? Someone finds words that scare her....she decides to cry really hard at 11pm? It was an act  they were given you officers because they are conspiring against me and in court this will be shown...