Shuv Your Hate up Yo Haters

I've been documenting my life, as in writing and scanning and uploading thousands of pages with photos and video, online since 1999. As I have in some way shape or form since I was first almost beat to death in 1993 by a racist african american woman cop who one day I will stand face to face for ALL of the loss of what was really supposed to be my life....all because I didnt have my wallet one evening and there was no one to ASK to enter the subway.....over $1.25 my life was ruined by this disgusting woman ... For years I told people about it assuming they would be incensed to. But in fact they would just sit on th einfo until they couldnt get their way and use it ti make me look like I had a colored past etc...and it snowballed from there...sadly if you are reading this you are probably one of those haters looking to KEEP doing it to me....well go ahead...Im going to finally tie it all together as a sort of biography I guess....It wasnt until 2001 my family came to my rescue and really kept me from being killed off by the spiteful liars who regulalry seem to haunt me...and for writing about it-like a plea-I make them even more determined to see me bbq'd one day...how can I not be interested in finding out the real reasons ? Ya I think writing an open letter in some way to simply provoke a conscience out of a liar is a great idea...I know the police are more enterained by blood battles and resent me for being smarter than most of them but...wtf? Im 50 gh trs old! My life was taken from me, its over for me-but they have to keep stucking knife in deeper? I say no. All of rgs TALK is trying to address that problem for everyone's sake...

 

I have just about everything Ive ever lived, sang, painting, videotaped, written, photographed, farted basically online,,,so what a joke that based on some lying croc tears from the original trblmkr Im going to have a cop stand at my door telling me my life cant be online....its all so damn ludicrous. Like if I have the bully on video buyying me-they dont want to know about it-because theyve alreadu decided Im an asshole? Ya Ive been turned into an asshole by YOU? SO they want to keep beating me up why? sexual release? Seriously? Im still in a state of shock that cops were at my door because I dropped a piece of paper with 6 words on it "Dear Students of Christ the king" By all means lets get the church, archdiocese in on this? Teacher bullies her neighbor and because she pretends to cry innocence Im threatened with arrest? When Im watching TV in my bed?

 

I feel like I could be happy enough to never get angry ever over anything in my life-but how do 1 do that with lies and police constantly it seems, always being sent by vindictive liars to  assault me emotionally? Do u know how many times I've heard the sentence "I'll call the police"? Yet never once was it NOT because people simply wanted to embarrass me. It's like curing cancer. It never really goes away. But fuck it's NOT cancer which is why it could be fixed if ppl would just admit I've been robbed! Who most should compensate me first? on the long list of my entire adult life? Nypd? Jane? Bikram? SO many big one's and then 2 have to deal with my mentally obese scum sucking neighbors on top of all of that? What Ive had to try to survive for the pasr 20 yrs? ? What am I supposed to do carry the photo of myself looking like Kelly Thomas after Racist Transit Officer Deborha Moore's handy work on my head on 1993? You have seen me, or heard me at my very worst-I'm not always proud but pretty damn close. Arrested for being sarcastic? Seriously?!  can u imagine calling police in my life for no reason and not only not get an apology but THEY KEEP showing up at my doors called by vindictive people for decades? It's like a sick game. Then when I get frustrated with some clueless cop THEY then become the enemy again too...the cycle continues and its my fault? I sleep on a fucking airmattress and never made more than $20,00 a yr in my entire adult life because of this gd crap. Only because Ive had help from my family and a few great friends have I (sort of) survived.

So I always tried to keep the different stories out of view from the troublemakers...but I dont care anymore...I used to believe that if I opened up-they would step off...maybe even help me...at least be kinder...bu now I know anything personal they can find will only result in my further ruination....I dont care anymore. Im not suicidak, but to have to have been stuck with these shit oeple all tehse years and STILL be treated as if Im living in nazu germany? Everyone cam go fck themselves.

LASD really buys The Games excuse? Or did they themseives hire him? Pay him even? Really just set up a "...fore I kreep into ya projects turn em inta colunbine" self serving reason to crack down on the power of twitter? With all the feeling of war in the air the cops want to focus on what as a priority? Their own survival-maybe just like the rest of us...maybe we could at least be honest about that....the beauty of words is that no one has to die..but people get used to their bloody habits and they dont want to grow...

Maybe his record company will buy www.callthepolice.com from me? With a lot of money everyone will like me so much better...yahoo. Thud